Auras and Scalpel Knives

All my life I have always been interested in stuff like auras, personality types, body language, and so forth. I have always wished I had some special power to see the future, to look at someone and be able to see stuff about them without actually knowing them. I feel like I am quite perceptive and am in tune with a lot of things but I never considered that I had the power to actually see things. I have heard that with near-death experiences that you pick up on a lot more of these kinds of things, it will even enhances what skills, if any, that you already have in these areas and sometimes will even allow you to perceive or see paranormal things.

One day my sister-in-law came to see me in the ICU. I remember opening my eyes and she was standing on the right side of my bed, but I could not see her at all. All I could see was this thick, dark, dense, cloud that was standing where her voice was coming from. I remember she didn’t say much but I was overcome by this intense and overwhelming emotional feeling of sadness. I stared at that dark mass that completely covered her and I thought, “Why is she so sad?” I couldn’t figure out why. And then a couple days later she came to visit me again and she came walking into the room and was bubbly and happy and said “Hi Han! You look so much better!” and she was almost glowing not quite with a yellow color but close and I remember thinking at how dramatically different the two emotions were.

Another time my brother was staying with me and as I was laying there I opened my eyes and looked at him and he was surrounded by a clear red color. I say clear because it was so much lighter then the denseness that had been around my sister-in-law. This red was bright and it completely surrounded him and even spread out a quite a ways from him. It didn’t cover him like the black I had seen, only surrounded him. I remember looking at it but not thinking much about it. It wasn’t until I got out of the hospital that I started to wonder about it. What was it that I had seen? I came to the conclusion that it must have been an their auras. What else could it have been?

I don’t see auras now and I haven’t seen them since that first week in the hospital but I wish I still could. I wished a lot of times that I would be able to do cool stuff like sense the future, but I can’t. I do feel like it has enhanced a few things in my life, but other then that, I have no special psychic abilities that I am aware of.

Another odd experience from the ICU was when I woke up during surgery. I remember waking up and I was not in my hospital room but somewhere white. Everything was stark white, the walls, floor, sheets everything. I was lying on a bed and realized that I wasn’t exactly clothed, and I didn’t have a sheet to cover me either. I have always been a very modest person and so this was very shocking and quite embarrassing for me. Especially when I realized there was a doctor sitting by my right side. There were some kind of tools on the table beside him and I watched him, very confused and quite scared, not knowing at all what was going on or what was going to happen. I watched him and in my mind I thought that he was sitting there sharpening his knife. Now I don’t know much about surgery, I don’t know if the doctors sit there and sharpen their knives right before they cut into you, or what exactly goes on. I was confused and probably half drugged and so it appeared to me that he was sharpening his knife. I wondered what he was going to do with it and then i mentally gulped as I imagined the ways he could use it on me. Yes I have an overactive imagination, but in this situation who could blame me? I picture all kinds of things in my mind, and so by the time he was ready to proceed I was quite terrified.  I don’t know what surgery it was, or what he was doing, but I remember watching as he picked up his knife, or whatever it is that doctors use for surgery and then he slowly lowered it to what I remember in my mind as my leg, or around that area, and began cutting. I watched as he cut and the blood started to run and then I don’t remember anything else.

When I think back on that memory now I think its kind of a cool one, even though I was half scared out of my mind at the time. I think that goes for a lot of things though. What ever we are facing at the moment, there will always be a time when we can look back on the experience and say, “I made it through. I survived.” And sometimes, in hindsight, its never as bad as you thought it was at the time.